I cried today.
Not because I’m particularly sad, but because a sadness has a permanent home within me.
Waking at the strangest times, flooding my mind and emptying my heart.
I miss you. And the love you gave me from the start.
And the promise that I’d always have a friend in you.
That I’d never have to swim alone, or push the cart myself.
A piece of me which can never be replaced.
A loneliness only a child can understand.
I smiled today.
Not because I want to.
But because it happens as involuntarily as a blink of the eye.
When your voice echos in my mind, and face within my heart.
I saw you today.
In my sister’s quirks and brother’s ways.
In my Bella’s eyes, green as yours.
In myself, each day, more and more.
I miss you today.
For what you miss and words I can’t say.
You live today.
As you always will…
Through us all everyday.